someone to be...

it had been a very long time since i opened this blog, this serves  as my online diary, hahaha.. i don't know, it was so hard for me to explain anything about what happend in me the past month. i was so overwhelmed that being a person of integrity would be able to make your life complete, one thing; my mom gots a new job, she was hired and now is very busy, and because of that she sometimes don't have time for us. i mean my life now sucks, i have mixed emotions and no one to open up, i was like a wilted flower, but as i wilt, i will always be a winner in my self.
dreams were things that coulnd't be steal from a person, i have dreams, and that is the very thing that i will not let them steal it, i am a firework! as what katy perry have said, i was very unknown this time and i know that every notes that is in my heart will always comfort me.
i won't forget that every dreamer has it's own dream and all dreams would come true if they are just willing and trustworthy of those things being treasured to them.
i love jam.

8 years of christmas without dad

yeah, it's the 8th year that i am celebrating my Christmas without my dad. the memories are all refreshing and are all coming back, the time had already passed away, and the storm is now silent, i never thought that this day would be a day of reminisce from my past, what i have before is different now, my past is past, people say that it shouldn't be discussed, but the past is the reason that's why our present life is like this.
i miss my dad, he had been a very good father to me, maybe there were times when i was young that i hated him, but he still is the best, i love him not because of his money but simply because he's my dad. and not having him in the past 8 years is like celebrating Christmas without Christmas lights. he's the best! and no one else can replace him.
this time, i will not be needing another line that was called a perfect line, but what i am needing right now  is another perfect life that will serve as my new inspiration to strive more.
i will fight this kind of feelings, because i know that my dad is now In the hands of God. and that he's happy there. but i wish he will be here to tell me for the last time that he love me.
one thing is.
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"I LOVE YOU PAPA"

we have our x-factor!

it was last november 23 when we auditioned in the x- factor phillipines. and it was the main reason that i want to have this blog.
our group name was "crunchy sais" the name was from the peewee junkfood.
many had been so curious and  interested to know what the crunchy means, and when it was revealed, everyone was enjoying listening to it, it was like a joke for them, but for me it wasn't.

we sang the song rolling n the deep by adelle, and entering the level 3 haven't been that easy, you know the song was so diffucult in my part because it's a barbie song, but luckily i was able to blend my voice with my group mates so just good enough to finish the levels.
i was scolded by my grand father, but the joy and the fun i have inside my heart and the experience remains here in my heart, it was a full package day, being absent in the class missed me a lot of scores, but it was so fun being there in the PWC.
we've even met, ate monica, kuya chrisitian, kuya oliver and many more.
and a day with the kape kwatro (the group of my other friend who also auditioned) is so fun.
i love that day.
i was thinking of one day that there would be more opportunities that will come.
it must be a very tiering but so much fun in that day, and it will remain here in my heart.
!!we have the x-factor!!